hunger hurts, but starving works.

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I have a FULL bagel for breakfast WITH cream cheese: 436 cals.
2 Diet Cokes: 0 cals. 
1 special K bar: 50 cals.
1 Water: 0 cals.
Fried Shrimp: 454 cals..
total: 940 calories.
at least i didn’t go over 1000 though.
tomorrow i’m hoping to be under 500.
lets hope so. 

finding motivation is so easy

when i see your disapointed face

so uniterested

how can i get your undevided attention?

talk to me,

just tell me you care

notice me

do you see that im dissapearing?

slipping off the radar

melting into the sea

follow me

come closer

i need your eyes

to be fixed on me

chase me round the floor

i need her to be jealous

just look at me again

im changing cant you see?

and as there’s less of me to look at,

it might be easier to do

and as there’s less of me to be

you can love each inch some more.

if you want someone to save

and be a hero

im here

find me

please

im still waiting

EXCITED (:

& they will not know

the things I’d hate to show

Im here to reach my goal,

fuck it, I will not fall.

 Advice may be misleading

but I wont start eating

without my limits there,

I think thats pretty fair.

 I have a motivation,

it’s my determination

the feeling of being free,

the feeling of being me.

 And it may take some time,

but love is not a crime

it’ll be worth its while,

I crave to see his smile…

serpentsbeneaththeirhoods:

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I’m hoping it was under 1000 calories.

I woke up at 5, so I didn’t need to worry about lunch or breakfast,
and I was pretty much just going to fast today,
but my mom INSISTED on making me eat chinese.
greasy, fried, chinese food.
AND after that i had a plate of cherries.

ugh, so fat.
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